Mommy Needs Jesus

Sometimes the hardest thing to believe is not that God is present in the hard seasons. Sometimes the harder thing is trusting Him in the moments when nothing is going wrong…yet.

When things feel steady, part of us is already bracing for the moment they won’t.

Recently I noticed a familiar pattern in my own heart.

The Lord had been leading me toward a decision about homeschooling my son, and at first I felt excited about the possibility of new rhythms, shared time together, and an adventure we could walk together.

But somewhere along the way, a question started forming.

Why now?

I wasn’t really worried, just curious about what God might be doing. Was He simply leading us into a new season for our family, or was He preparing us for something I couldn’t see yet?

That question followed me into Bible study one morning as I listened to several women share stories about how the Lord had guided them in different seasons of their lives. As they talked, they described ways God had led them to make certain decisions that later prepared them for something difficult.

One woman shared how a move had quietly prepared her family for a season of loss. Another talked about how a change in direction strengthened her faith before a hard chapter arrived.

As I listened, I thought,

What if that’s what this is? What if homeschooling isn’t just about school? What if God is preparing me for something hard?

And just like that, my old friends fear and doubt had crept back in.

Nothing bad had happened, and yet I found myself forecasting a stormy future.

I don’t think I’m the only one who does this.

When something good happens, instead of simply enjoying it, our minds start scanning for what could go wrong.

We may not say it out loud, but we think,

This probably won’t last.

It’s like we’re waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Why is it hard to simply receive good things?

Part of this comes from experience. Life in a broken world includes hardship, and many of us have walked through seasons that left us scarred and stretched our faith.

But sometimes something deeper is happening.

Scripture tells us the enemy is the father of lies (John 8:44) and usually those lies don’t show up loudly.

They slip in as thoughts that feel almost reasonable.

Don’t get too comfortable.
Something bad is probably coming.

The thought itself is not the real danger.

Agreement is.

When we begin to expect the worst, we shift from trusting God’s heart to questioning it. Instead of receiving His gifts with gratitude, we start preparing ourselves for disappointment.

But God. During that same Bible study, another woman shared a story that began to shine a light back on God’s truth.

She talked about her mother, who is an artist. Her mom has an entire room in her home dedicated to weaving, filled with looms, yarn, and what looks like chaos to anyone walking in. Threads stretch across frames, colors run in different directions, and half-finished pieces cover the room.

As a child, she would walk into that room, look at what her mom was working on, and think,

This looks terrible. How is this ever going to become something beautiful?

From her perspective, it looked like a tangled mess.

But when her mother finished working on the piece, she would lift it off the loom and turn it around.

And suddenly it was a masterpiece.

What had looked confusing and messy from the back revealed an intricate pattern on the front. Colors that seemed random were actually placed with intention. Every thread had a purpose.

The problem was not the weaving.

It was the perspective.

I realized in that moment that I had been staring at the backside of my own story.

From our angle, the threads do not always make sense. Some seasons feel tangled. Others feel unfinished. Sometimes the colors do not match the picture we imagined for our lives.

But God is not weaving from the back.

He sees the front of the tapestry.

Jeremiah 29:11 reminds us that His plans are for good and not for harm, to give us a future and a hope.

And Romans 8:28 gives us an even deeper assurance:

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.”

All things.

Even the threads we do not understand yet.

Maybe part of trusting God is remembering that we are not looking at the finished side of the weaving. We are standing behind the loom, watching threads move, while the Master Weaver is creating something we cannot fully see yet.

And maybe that’s why we can receive the good things in front of us today without fear.

Because the God who holds tomorrow is still good today.

The One who is weaving the story has not lost control of the threads.

And maybe faith looks like learning to receive the good things God puts in front of us without assuming something bad is lurking in the shadows.

Maybe that is the invitation for all of us: to stop living like the next chapter will ruin the story and start trusting the Author who is still writing it.

A Prayer

Lord,

You know how quickly my mind can move from gratitude to worry. When good things happen, it is easy for me to begin bracing myself for the moment they might disappear.

Forgive me for the ways I agree with fear instead of trusting Your heart.

Help me recognize the lies of the enemy and replace them with the truth of Your Word. Remind me that You are good and that nothing in my life escapes Your care.

Teach me to receive the good gifts You place in front of me today with gratitude and trust.

Help me rest in the truth that You are holding every thread.

Amen.