Mommy Needs Jesus

Sometimes I ask the question quietly,
sometimes I ask it out loud.

Is it You, Lord?
How do I know?

I can get caught up in my feelings and emotions so easily. I know what I think is right, but am I actually hearing from God, or am I just hearing myself?

I ask Him for a sign, or a knowing, and sometimes it feels like He gives it to me. A sense of peace, a nudge, a moment that feels clear. And then, almost immediately, doubt creeps back in.

What if I’m wrong,
what if I made this up,
what if this is just my flesh, my desire, my fear talking?

I want to be sure. I want certainty. I want some kind of guarantee before I move forward.

But I’ve learned something over time. I’m not sure that kind of certainty is even promised this side of heaven.

And that’s usually when I decide to take a baby step.

Baby steps still count

A baby step sounds small, almost insignificant, but I’m learning there are no leaps of faith without a series of baby steps that led the way.

We love to celebrate the big leap, the bold obedience, the dramatic yes, but we rarely talk about the quiet, ordinary steps that came first.

Think about something that feels like a huge leap of faith. Taking a new job, moving to a different state, starting something new that feels risky or uncertain.

From the outside, it looks like one big jump.

But usually, it started much smaller.

A realization that what you were doing no longer fit,
a conversation with your spouse or someone you trust,
updating a resume, exploring options,
responding to an email,
having a conversation,
then another one,
and finally, a decision.

What looks like a leap was actually built on a lot of small, faithful steps.

Trust grows with movement

Here’s what I’m learning. God often builds trust as we move, not before.

He doesn’t always give us the whole picture. Instead, He invites us to walk with Him, step by step, learning to trust His voice along the way.

Baby steps aren’t a lack of faith. They’re often faith in its earliest, bravest form.

They sound like this:

God, I’m not totally sure, but I want to trust You,
so I’ll take the next best step I know how to take,
and I’ll watch for You there.

You don’t have to figure out the leap today. You just have to take the next small step of obedience He’s placing in front of you.

A gentle question

What’s the next best thing you can do right now?

Not the whole plan,
not the five-year vision,
not the leap.

Just the next step.

Trust often grows in motion.
Clarity often comes after obedience.
And God is faithful to meet us in the small steps, not just the big ones.

A prayer

God,
I want to hear You clearly,
I want to trust You fully.

When doubt creeps in and certainty feels far away,
help me take the next small step instead of standing still.

Teach me to trust You one moment at a time,
to walk with You instead of waiting until I feel completely sure.

Meet me in the baby steps,
and lead me where You’re going.

Amen.

One day at a time,
lifting our eyes back to Jesus,
abiding to thrive.